For those of you who do know, I am very serious about my career... Film Producer/Film Maker.... I play both roles... The only difference between the two is money and how much work you do... I know it's a lot envy, out there towards a Black Man like myself, well the type of Black Man I am. I deal with that, it's just part of the life.... No one is use to us being in "authority", they don't want to see it. Especially in the entertainment business! It's all about power over someone, you understand the concept. Yes they don't want to see me in power, because I do have some die hard qualities, that can't be over come no matter what. Even my own kind don't what to see it... You know what I hear a lot of, "they not use to it..." Like I am just suppose to not shine and forfeit my life for the shake of anyone else. Well get use to it! I am going to do a huge truth telling today, the point I will be making, is that I will not only shine the brightest I can, but this is the crap I have to put up with to do it.
This story takes place a few years back, it was doing the end of my film school days and I was working on my first film, "Sex N Tha Black Man". I had started the pre-production phase and started looking for actors. I came across the head shot of this one aspiring actress, who look really familiar to me. At first I thought it was just a illusion, I was up late that night, then I realized it wasn't, it was her. Some weeks ago I was at the gentleman's club, called Hustler in Manhattan. A very swank place. Now I love all types of Women, but Iam one to support a black girl, give her the first shot you know. So I met this one who was working there and you know she danced for me and she had a attitude anyway, cause I made a comment and she smack me, even tho it wasn't that abnormal. I just said you dance like a porn star. What!!! Haha... So anyway here I am now with her head shot right in front of me. So I thought wow this would be fun, let me go and holla at her about this film, I am casting for.. She got to me in like a few hours and we talked on the phone and we set up a time to meet for lunch the next day.
So we met up and had lunch, when she first saw me she asked where did she know me from. I told her I don't know what you are talking about, but I already know it really was her... So I showed her the script and she was interested and we had her audition and then I casted her for one of the roles. We moved forward from there and then she just started a bunch of bullshit so I dropped her from the production. I must confess after that revenge was on my mind. So it would be like 4 years later, when again I came across her profile and feeling that warm feeling in my legs again, it was time for revenge... So I left her a simple comment, "hey how you doing" and such, and let her know the answer to her question was Hustler the club where we meet at....LOL.... So that was that... Come to find out she runs with some people I know and they told me about her, which I already know her and I told them how I knew her. So I don't know if it's been a few weeks or what but after sometime she contacts me back with this:
I should also mention she blocked me too... LOL... Which I find very funny.... The moral of the story is, yes! I do have Power... I know information that you don't that's Power the information, knowing things about you that you don't know I do. In the streets we call it acting brand new, when talking about a chick... Let me tell you, I know she hated the thought of a Black Men doing something Powerful. While all the ones in her family are dying or doing nothing, paralyzed from the waist down. All the ones she thinks she should love aren't any better... It's really funny, but this is just one of the many stories I have and you know what, the Males aren't much better... For some reason with me, the Females just don't seem to wanna get down and make something happen... Are they really that scared about having to fuck me or us ending up together??? Not that any of the ones I met, are the ones I want to have that happen with... I get that feeling, cause I watch their personal life, I watch the type of roles they take, for them white boys and I see how they live their personal life and with who... If I had to make a conclusion it would be that they think I couldn't get next to them no other way but this, so they can't let that happen cause who knows why...
Not that anything is actually wrong with myself, it's just the type of person they are.. They should be like this is someone who's not only a decision maker but able to produce and has a vision. Iam with that. In a perfect world it would be that way.... I just find this very funny, cause it seems while I've taken off, her career has gone no where.. LOL...
You can see from my character I didn't tell her that day, because I wanted to spare her the embarrassment. Plus I didn't want her to feel awkward... I am not going to call her, she's a fool, they are all fools who think they have any control over stopping me and my goals.... Or even thinking that I am the one they can pass on.... Oh even consider that they are my type!!!!! How about that...
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