I said it, so what!!!!!! Hahahaha....

So normally, I would say that this is very off topic, from the production of Film. At least in my perspective, cause only I control what I think and feel. Which I try to keep all one hundred percent positive all the time. Then there are just days when yes I do relapse back into that bullshit, cause true despair is like a drug. I mean pity can be both a powerful motivator and comfort. Even if you are a dedicated risk taker! Like myself, just to have something to blame other then yourself is easy to do, just so you can not tell yourself to stop and move one, instead you just keep on base jumping while knowing the last five times your chute didn't opening and you got lucky just to survive the last attempts.

"I have never seen a wild thing feel sorry for itself. A little bird will fall dead, frozen from a bough, without ever having felt sorry for itself." So no I don't feel sorry for myself, Iam confident that I am intelligent, talented, brave and strong. What Iam sorry for is the people who are laying there bleeding to death and instead of accepting aid from a person willing to render it, they would rather wait for someone else who they feel fit to assist them even if it means they will perish. While I can accept someone's choices, if they are based on pure fact. I can't with these people because they have been brainwashed. They have no idea why they feel, behave or see things the wrong way they do. At the end of the day I know they are just being biased.

Now being in the entertainment industry I am not surprised by this fact. The whole game is so very biased, so very biased.. I don't want to even go into it cause that's a whole other story. What I am talking about is the biases against myself. Mainly for no other reason then that I am a Black Male in a position of power and I have real power and wield it forcefully. As a Black film maker, I take nothing but air and turn it into something of matter. It's proof of my existence. The more I do it the more powerful I become. So you ask why would I be so worked up, well because it has never just been limited to film for me. It has been on me in a lot of other stuff all throughout my life. Even before I choose film as a career endeavor.