I finally see what's wrong..

Well this isn't how I want to end the month, but going into the New Year I like to see somethings change... One of the hardest things I had to deal with is funky ass people. These are the type of people, who just really waste your time. Thinking they can be more then what they are not, just because. It's not like they are even involved in their own life 50%. So they grown around your garden like weeds and before you cut them you have to check to see if they might just be a new kind of flower. This is never the case. All the time they turn out to be weeds.

This had been going on for some years now, since way back when I first started, when I can remember. I think I have yet to meet a truly real actor or person who wants to be such. I am looking forward to the day when I do, instead of people who are just lazy and looking for a easy way to make a few dollars. It's crazy , cause all these weeds do is just drain the life out of your garden. With the taking down of fences, it has only made things worst. Cause now their all over the place.

I happen to meet one once again this week. Another aspiring model, who doesn't even bring anything to the top, she wasn't even hot. At least not for a native Hawaiian girl.. It's so many of them here who just don't get it, you don't choose anything you get chose. They all watch to much T.V and think they can just become a Model without no training, oh they also have a square's life going on, meaning school or something lame like that. I was going to provide a link to this fake Model just so you can she what a waste she was. As I am sitting there explaining to here that I hate wasting my time and these are the things I don't want to do, here she goes nodding yes and playing this game of make believe. Then she claims to drop her life's passion just like that. Which I could careless about, but a simple I don't want to do it would have been better before we met.

I can go on and on and on, but I finally see what's wrong... The world has changed, Cable T.V, the Internet, all has people thanking delusions of grander... When in fact they don't even understand how their actions determine their faith in the universe. You she when you behave or think or act a certain way, you are cursing yourself for the rest of your life. I am not talking about Kama. I don't believe in that, but what I do believe in is that if you just frivolous act and see what you want as having little or no importance, that's going to set the tone for your life. Which you will never be able to receive closure from.

People set back and are just in awe, jealous and spiteful of my life, cause it's worry free, happy and I am fulfilled. Not to mention proud. They most likely know no one in their world like that, who has things to offer and has a lot and isn't selfish. What they fail to recognize is I have this because of how I act in the world with others, no matter what no one can say anything ill about be, which doesn't reflect on their behavior. That's power. Especially in a world of different people that I have dealt with.

So all the time, when they act like I just became a school teacher or they flaky on a audition. Then when something big comes along and they want it so bad they risk that school teacher job, they show up ill prepared and embarrasses themselves and blow their big shot, not thinking that these same people will have them black balled. They lose the school teacher job cause they ran off to try and be a star with nothing to really define that. I hope they finally see what's wrong. I like to think they look at themselves in the mirror and say, "You Suck!!"