This is my last Personal Post!!!!!

Yes this is my last personal post... For real!! I fear I am becoming a cynic or that's what everyone is trying to turn me into and if I keep writing like one then that's what I will most likely end up as. I am a Pessimist and plan on staying that way. So I need to just write and focus on my life as a film writer, director and write according to just that and nothing else. So all future post will only refer to that, before I go! No pun intended towards my move to Hawaii. Some of you, who know me to well. Have brought it to my attention that I take grudges. Which is the only thing about me, you will get me to honestly admit to. Hey I had to have some vice. Really don't hate me, cause I was already to blog about my trip and who I will miss and what I am going to miss and how much it was nice to have some real friends for a change. Then I got this stupid email from this wannabee actress and I really took it personal. If you're a good person, how can you not. So stupid actress, feels I am low budget, really I am no budget LMAO.. That's not worth her getting naked and doing the romance scene for her character. No hold up, for real! She wants me to pay her to do natural things, she does with some bum ass nigga for free. Oh did I mention, she's on the county, public assistant for her child.

For the record, low budget is any project under 20 million dollars. So her comment about that isn't the grudge. It's in the snob, stickup behavior that's she deserves something, because she assumes I have it and her one time on the set of Jay Z's rock boys video makes her a know star. She's never done a film, has no professional head shots and her voice isn't the most feminine, but she is sexy as fuck. I will give her that. No it's not about me fucking her! Well maybe! No seriously, she's looks like Alicia Keys, there's this vibe about her that's just odd. Then again, all these actresses seem weird to me. They're not strippers, but they want money, but don't take clothes off??? I don't get it....??? My grudge isn't because she read the wrong part of the script or character, she complained about having only two lines! (Pause for laughter!) HAHAHAHAHA, yeah I know!! Then she tries to get back at insulting me, but hold up I just show you the email.

From: thewildwillshow
Hey Lisa.. Here's the script.. Sorry for the delay.. I just got back into town.. I like you for the part of Jessie... Let me know if you want to do it.. It's yours... Call Me ASAP.. Wild Will...

From: lisa
wow 2 lines?? i will get back to you God Bless your truly Lisa H.

From: thewildwillshow
SMH.. You know what I think something is really wrong with you.. Get help!!! If you look at the whole script it's way more then two Lines, not that that should matter... It's a part, it's work... So way do you care what the line count is anyway. You want me to pay you, which I was going to do, even though I am not going to see no money from it, no one is buying films with girls who have their clothes on... LOL.. I just throw my hands up with you... Here look at it again, not that it matters cause I can't work with you.. You just not serious, you want more then you can give and that's not how I do business..

From:lisa
see i would react to you but u knw what i wont give you the satisfaction. and one im not showing my body for no low budget fucking film and 2 its not a dream for me its money business and i really dont a FUCK how you feel or think in this world its me and my son against the world so FUCK THE WORLD ALL I LOVE IS MY KID. and me getting help u should put the shoe were it fits...
remember you don't have to deal with me there always someone out there who will
God Bless your truly Lisa H.

This is my favorite part, I love showing emails.. So yeah that's what I have to deal with everyday in NYC. Nothing but a bunch of prima donnas. I have yet to meet one real Actress. Anyone know of any? Who does she think she is? Jay Z and them sure aren't calling her. Are they? Nah, who can deal with someone who thinks there name should be on a 120 million dollar film.. Just becaus they breath air!!! (PAUSE FOR BIGGER LAUGTHER) HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

Never mind that I only treated her like a person, always offer her son a drink or cookie, when she dragged him out to a few meetings with me. She just felt I wasn't worth a apology. Which is what she should have did and left it at that. I don't get it, how these people have this entitlement, that they confuse with being ambitious. Everyone started from the same place in line, the bottom and waited their turn and paid dues, ect. These assholes want to just go to the front of the line, cause they to lazy or stupid to put in time and work. It's good this is my last personal post, cause I could get really upset and be nasty about the whole thing. It's better I just move forward and leave her to regret the folly of her day. When I make a 100 million dollar film and then she will do love scenes and nudity just because it's worth her effort. So yeah I still get what I want out of her sooner or later. Then I won't want it, need it, or like it... (PAUSE FOR FINAL LAUGH) HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

The bottom line, is sex sells, and I am a unknown and young film maker. The fastest way for me to get attention is to feature sexy girls, ect.. Really still these aren't even the girls I really want, but no one is perfect. So that's the logic of it all. This is just as much of a business for me as it for her and I don't have a son, it's just me against the world.. What really just upsets me is that, if they just understand this, we can all make money and get ahead. Except no one eats before me!

Now I had to save the best for last. Her three year old son, he's got all the talent. Kid, good luck!